Pack Up and Ship Out

Sometimes we have to ask ourselves, is it worth it, when making a decision. Mentally, emotionally, spiritually, financially, fundamentally. That is A LOT to think about regarding one specific thing. You can’t just think about one and not another because they all waterfall into each other, ya know what I mean? It’s all cause and effect, that’s why our decisions throughout our entire life are always so important no matter the size or severity.

Throughout all of my moves I have made some great decisions and some very poor decisions. I mean, who hasn’t, right? Moving around so much brought on new experiences along with new people so being acclimated for a long period of time was never a usual thing. 

I think the biggest thorn in my side about decisions I have made is they have not always been for me; they have been for other people, completely disregarding myself. Palm of hand on forehead. And let me tell you, they have been the decisions that have negatively impacted me the most!

It is said that being of service to others brings true happiness. I do not disagree with any of those words. However, the message in those words can be hidden though. Being of service to others does not mean compromise yourself for another’s benefit. Being of service to others does not mean put someone else first before your well being. Being of service to others does not mean turn your life upside down for someone else so they can live comfortably. Someone’s need for you is just simply not always genuine or “really needed.” So when making decisions based upon someone else, still considering yourself is most important. 

 I vividly remember times in my life I have done all three of the things I aforementioned and paid a price, I still am. Despite still dealing with the aftershock of some bad decisions, those decisions are of the past. And the past is where they shall stay. Easier said than done at times, I get it, but it’s the only way to handle what was. 

Things don’t happen to us, they happen for us. Gosh I love those nine words, thanks Mar! There are things we simply need to get over, pack up and ship out. But we learn from them sooner or later (hopefully). 

I was living In Philadelphia years and years ago, of course made a decision solely based on someone else and saying to myself “this is going to scar me for life, geez Pilar. Whyyyyyy?” Well, it definitely didn’t. It became a memory in my hard drive and has zero bearing on my life now. May have taken some time to get to that place of “no bearing” but it did. It was intense, it was a decision I made emotionally and not properly, and it was like a mosquito bite that didn’t go away for years. 

Over the past few years I have danced with the devil and strolled with the angel of love and light. Making decisions that compromise my initial thought process, doing the opposite of what my gut tells me, that just isn’t an option anymore. It’s wiped off the dry erase board. Life has too much love and opportunity to give and is too short to allow others to negatively impact me. 

The following quote is one that i love so much. It does not directly pertain to what i just wrote about but it relates. We will always have time to do the work and/or pray to make our lives better. 

“When the world pushes your knees, you’re in the perfect position to pray.”~ Rumi