little things

 

So far, today has been a good day. I have been forced to appreciate the good days, more so than I ever have, within the past few months. I have always tried my best to “be free” and enjoy life, key word “tried.” I have also failed miserably at those things time and time again. I have never always made the right, or good decisions and I have certainly not appreciated life how it should be lived (through my eyes). Recent events have given me that pat on the tush to accept and own all of my wrong doings (to myself and others) to this day. If has taken time and lots of memories to sift through, but I think I’m all caught up. 

According to AA (Alcoholics Anonymous) the process I just discussed would be Step 5 in the 12 Step process; “admitted to god, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.” In the Hinduism this would refer to “voluntarily accepting one’s errors and misdeeds, confession, repentance, means of penance and expiation to undo or reduce the karmic consequences.”  In summary, this could be considered a sacrament of forgiveness. Forgiving myself. I spend 24 hours only with one person, me. So I better do things right for myself. 

You may be thinking, “damn, what’s the dirt on her and her badness?” Normal reaction, I get it. However, the level and differences of what’s good and bad vary from person to person, we all don’t think the same about things. So for me, it’s just a wide range of stuff from childhood up until now. In all my moves I have experienced some type of circumstantial chaos, but never has a circumstance forced me to see and think so clearly about life as the one I’m in now has.

The love to and from family and friends, they are so wonderful to have in life. The accomplishments, the success, the money we make, they are also so wonderful to have in life. What I think we miss amidst all of this “wonderful” in life are the little things. Having a good day when have had so many bad days, sitting next to someone in silence while smiling at one another not needing one word to explain what those smiles mean, taking a hot shower after being outside in the snow, eating a full meal after not being able to in a few days, watching a bird fly through the air that is allowing the wind to direct their destination, getting a text saying “thinking about you and just wanted to say hi”, having family or friends stop by unannounced, having coffee made for you in the morning, listening to your dog quietly snore while sleeping on your lap because they are so content, smiling and saying hello to a stranger, the days getting longer, the smell of a fireplace, receiving a letter in the mail, taking a walk, having a dance party in your kitchen. 

My gosh, that list could have gone on for pages. Intentionally noticing what makes us and others smile, it’s so amazing. 

The examples I just gave, they are the little things. We all have different little things. So please try to remember, the little things can hold the greatest gift. They can affect someone’s day with a little more joy, which may be exactly what someone needed.